Who knew...

Who knew I was also human...

Today one of the few times in my lifetime ...I'll zoned out...

Kept with millions of things in my mind... from event to event... situation to situation... worry to worry...idea to idea...

Plus I was filling up with emotions with alot of misses...

Like a human too, I take alot of what I do personal... like my artistes and whom-ever I'm in touch and close with... I know many times, a few will tell me, its not personal but I do take it personal if someone fails to produce, and THAT someone is someone either I'm mentoring, coaching or guiding...

I get affected...somehow... I wonder If i did a good job enough, enough to give back to them? or its just them or me?

Sometimes in some contradicting factors, when I really want to give all I can, someone(s) might just think motives is part of my agenda...

sad...

sleepless night, worries... creation of ideas and methods in hoping they might be able to learn and improve more...

'sigh'

logic will help at this times...

Maybe I really ask too much for myself... or...*sigh*

AI YA...

I really don't know now, Sometimes... I do wonder if I am asking too much of myself... but then I want perfection... so I can't stop...

I'm so caught up I need to breathe...

I'm not stress leh... really! its more of like... i need to be organised and stay focus!

I need to get back on my feet...

stop losing it... and get set and ready for what's to come!

Mama G

ps: Insensitive... I liked, love this song... I hope someone can teach me alittle abt being insensitive... sensitivity is a subjective issue, isn't it?

I miss you...

Its been a really busy time for me.... YEC MUSICAL....TEENAGE SMASH which ended with a blast last Sunday... more to come....and Live 'Live' 2009.

I'm tied up with so many thing my mind... but every night over these weeks as my eyes slowly closes into my deep sleeps...

I think about a few people... my late grandpas... my best friend, JP in states... my buddy Jimmy...

I miss them alot...

specially JP...Wondering what's he's doing when I'm tied up with everything... if I have neglected him, haven't called or email him for a while...

I know he's fine and happily in love with new found love, But I can't help but wonder...many people commonly tell me,"both of you never met, how can you ever say he's your best friend?" the "real" relationship never happen....nonsense lor...

I knew JP for 15yrs already... through phone, email, letters, pictures and videos... I've shared everything about me to him... I have no hidden stories with him.... and he loves me the way I am... for really who I am... *smile* I don't know if anyone person can easily say they have such a friend.Though far away he is always here for me... listening to me...and I am so here for him too.

I'm lucky to be in love with my best friend... though so far away...

I miss Jimmy...

hope he is ok. Became good friends only about a month after we met, he had to leave Singapore... sad...but he's a good chap! He still is... hope ou are all well in phli...

I miss Grand pas... i do... I miss you! I miss you so much... I never had a proper goodbye with you both...really... specially the only had my childhood as my memories... all I have with me is memories...the imagination of your touch, your fragrances...your smile... Can you see me now? Are you proud of me? Have I been the grand-daughter you hope I can be? Ah gong ... i miss you... I do... these thoughts just come to me... I don't think this is weakness... these tears of mine are kept away a long time.... You are always with me... I want another hug...no other hug can feel like yours...

Emo...

MAMA G

Support my kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Support My UAN Artistes this Saturday at

TEENAGE SMASH 2009!

Sentosa, Siloso Beach!!

Catch my other artistes performances,

Rachael Chang Hui Shi

&

Lee XuanWei

Oh yes! visit me...

UAN's booth!

Check out about T.A.P Programme.

Maybe you might win yourself a T.A.P Programme!

MAMA G

How is everything?

I believe in many things and people.

I believed in myself too.

I believed everyone has a choice.

I believe that choices are made with our sub consienous mind.

I believe sometimes we neglect alot of things in life.

I believe I will succeed.

I believe you can too.

You...can...

I believe.

MAMA G

How is everything?

I HAVE SO SO MUCH TO GIVE and So So Much to Gain.... I have you!

Sleepy.... decided to blog tomorrow instead.

MAMA G

My Passion My Hopes My Dreams...

When I decided what I want to do with myself for this year or years down the road, I figure I might be walking on a lonely path....

Because no one can understand why I chose the path I choose...

And how much of a perfectionist I will and can be if I set my mind to it.

I may misspell and add a sense of blurriness... but my mentor reminded me before... You are a perfectionist...only if you want to.

I love what I do, But I want more than just what I do...

I have to push myself to be THE BEST in what i do best...

I will push my followers to be THE BEST as well...

To be a leader, you must 1st follow...

as a follower, once you need to raise to the occasion to lead...

its your calling...

Be the leader... cos no one else can...

I follow and I lead... I must succeed...

Perfection is not possible... yet...

I will seek perfection in myself, my work, my passion, my dreams and my followers.


MAMA G